Ugly

I think. . . I am the ugliest person in my family. Sometimes, i ask to God when i pray. Why did you put me in this family? Why did you give me a life? As we know, life is a test for human. We have to know, which one is good or bad. Honestly. I trapped on the bad side. and i am not a confident girl. I just can draw manga. And that is not really important to my future life. Can i make a change to my life? Yes, I can. But only if i want.. If there is a will there is away - one of my favourite quotes. But i still doubt it. I am not sure that i can do that. It's too hard. :l i hate my life. And i love my friends's life. Huuh. It means i am not respect myself. Help me God. Bring me to the right way. Give me the clues. . I wanma be a better girl with a better life. :l